Is This What It Feels like (To Be Depressed?)

from Out Of The Dark by Paul Hammond

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There’s a fear that comes over me
It’s the fear of anxiety
It’s really got a hold on me
Don’t want people so close to me

Now I’m not blind but I can’t see
There’s a wall built up around me
It’s really got a hold on me
This fear called anxiety

I don’t wanna get up
I don’t wanna go out
I don’t wanna get dressed
Is this what it feels like to be depressed?

I don’t wanna be on my own
But I don’t want you around
Don’t wanna go out, don’t wanna get dressed
Is this what it feels like to be depressed?

I need to talk to understand
Understand myself, my own demands
I need to protect myself from me
Cos I could hurt myself most probably

I’m not as strong as I appear
I wanna stay in here, contain my fear
The only thing to me that’s clear
I cant bear you close not even near

Do you ever feel the same as me?
Do you ever feel the same as me?
Where nothing can make you feel happy?

I never wanna go to sleep
I don’t wanna feel wide awake
I need to close my eyes
But at the same time keep them open wide

I don’t know what I’m trying to say
But it doesn’t matter anyway
I’m contradicting myself all the time
Caught in that space in between the line

I don’t expect you to understand
I don’t expect you to offer your hand
I don’t understand myself, myself
All I know is that I’m not well, I’m not well

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from Out Of The Dark, released January 29, 2018

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A collection of works by singer songwriter producer Paul Hammond,
Psycho Sexual Sex Terrestrials,
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